SECTi0N>1: AB0UT Y0URSELF_ 
+` name: melissa
+` gender: female
+` height: 5'3
+` hair color: blonde
+` eye color: bluish gray
+` location: my house
+` fears: bugs

SECTi0N>2: HAVE Y0U EVER_
+` peed in ur pants: not in a very long time
+` cheated on someone: no
+` fallen off the bed: probably
+` fallen for a relative: nah
+` had plastic surgery: no
+` failed a grade: yes
+` broke someones heart: no
+` had ur heart broken: no
+` done something you regret: of course
+` cheated on a test: yeah 
+` broken a body part: no

SECTi0N>3: CURRENTLY_
+` wearing: sweat pants, sweat shirt, gray chucks
+` listening to: glen hansard
+` chewing: nothing
+` feeling: tired
+` reading: harry potter and the order of the phoenix
+` located: my house
+` chatting with: my keyboard
+` watching: the screen
+` should really be: sleeping

SECTi0N>4: D0 Y0U_
+` brush ur teeth: yeah
+` like anybody: nope
+` have any piercings: lip, nose, ears, tragus, rook, cartlidge, industrial and gauges
+` drive: yes
+` believe in santa: no
+` ever get off the pc: from time to time

SECTi0N>5: FRiENDS_
+` who is ur best: alexa, jessie and colleen
+` the loudest: ashley
+` shyest: me
+` hottest: um, idk
+` who do u hang out with most: alexa when i'm home, elizabeth and claire at school
+` laughs the most: alexa
+` known the longest: alexa 
+` known the shortest/least: maddy
+` do u hang out with a certain "type": nope
+` do u belong to a crew: no
+` consider urself popular: no
+` trust ur friends: yeah
+` are u a good friend: i try
+` can u keep a secret: usually if its important

SECTi0N>6: THE LAST PERS0N Y0U_
+` hugged: my mom
+` gave eprops to: whats an eprop?
+` IMed: alexa
+` talked to on the fone: my dad
+` yelled at: i don't remember, i'm not much of a yeller
+` fell in love with: still waiting
+` tripped: my sister

SECTi0N>7: PERS0NAL_
+` wat do u want to be when u grow up: i have no idea, maybe a librarian
+` wat was the worst day of ur life: i'm not sure
+` most embarrassing story: take your pick of my drunken experiences
+` the best day of ur life: i've had lots of good days
+` wat comes first in ur life: family, friends, music.
+` do u have a bf/gf/crush: nope 
+` if u had an extra set of eyes, where would u put them: the back of my head?
+` what do you usually think about before you go to bed: sleep

SECTi0N>8: FAV0RiTE_
+` movie: almost famous
+` song: that question is unanswerable
+` store: h & m or forever
+` relative: my cousins
+` sport: eh
+` vacation spot: tel aviv
+` fruit: pineapple
+` candy: dark chocolate m&ms.
+` holiday: christmas/hannukah
+` day of the week: friday
+` colors: purple
+` name for a girl: it used to be bella before i went to the breaking dawn book party
+` name for a boy: i like kieran

SECTi0N>9: D0 Y0U_
+` like to give hugs: sometimes, but especially when i'm drunk
+` like to walk in the rain: not really
+` sleep with or without clothes on: with
+` blue or black pens: black
+` dress up for halloween: yeah
+` have a job: when i'm home
+` like to travel: love
+` like someone: haven't we answered this like 4 times already?
+` sleep on side, stomach, or back: stomach
+` think ur attractive: not particularly
+` want to marry: yess
+` have a goldfish: nope
+` have stuffed animals: yeah
+` go on vacation: yep

SECTi0N>1o: WHAT D0 Y0U THiNK AB0UT_
+` abortion: pro choice
+` bill clinton: monica lewinsky
+` eating disorders: are not good
+` suicide: isn't an option
+` tattoos: love them
+` piercings: ^^
+` make up: i wish i was better at using it
+` drinking: is fun
+` guys: confuse me
+` girls: are obnoxious

SECTiON>11: ThiS OR THAT_
+` pierced nose or tongue: nose
+` be serious or funny: funny
+` single or taken: single
+` simple or complicated: simple
+` law or action: action
+` mtv or bet: mtv
+` 7th heaven or dawson's creek: dawson's creek 
+` sugar or salt: sugar
+` silver or gold: silver
+` tongue or belly button ring: neither
+` chocolate or flowers: flowers
+` angels or miracles: miracles
+` color or black&white photos: black and white
+` sunrise or sunset: sunset
+` m&ms or skittles: m&ms
+` rap or rock: rock
+` stay up late or sleep: stay up late
+` tv or radio: tv
+` taller or shorter members of the opposite sex: talll
+` sun or moon: moon
+` diamond or ruby: ruby
+` left or right: right
+` 10 aquaintances or one best friend: one best friend
+` vanilla or chocolate: vanilla
+` kids or no kids: babies
+` cat or dog: cat
+` mustard or ketchup: ketchup
+` spring or fall: spring
+` give or receive: receive
+` rain or snow: snow
+` lace or satin: lace
+` a year of hot sex or a lifetime of friendship: lifetime of friendship
+` happy or sad: happy
+` corduroy or plaid: plaid
+` wonder or amazement: amazement
+` sneakers or sandals: sneakers
+` McDonalds or Burger King: bk lounge
+` duct tape or scotch tape: duct tape
+` candy or soda: candy
+` a house in the woods or the city: city

SECTi0N>12: 0THER QUESTi0NS_
+` do u go to church: no
+` do u like church: no
+` why or why not: i'm jewish
+` wats ur favorite kind of tree: willow
+` out of all ur friends who has the coolest room: probably alexa

 i just found my livejournal from ninth grade and it's really awful.
who says hehe after every other sentence?!
oh yeah, 14-year-old me, that's who.
i just thought i'd share how disgusted i am with my former, ninth grade self.

 sometimes, i feel invisible.

 i do not care what car you drive
where you live
if you know someone who knows someone
if your clothes are this years cutting edge
if your trust fund is unlimited
if you a-list b-list or never heard of you list
i only care about the words that flutter from your mind
they are the only thing you truly own
the only thing i will remember you by
i will not fall in love with your bones and skin
i will not fall in love with the places you have been
i will not fall in love with anything but the words that flutter from your extraordinary mind
-andre jordan

 120 THINGS ABOUT ME ...

(001) Your gender:
female

(002) Straight/gay/bi?:
straight.

(003) Single?:
unfortunately

(004) Want to be?:
i'm not sure yet

(005) Age?:
19

(006) Age you wish you were?:
21

(007) Your label?:
you tell me

(008) Your height?:
5'3

(009) Your eye color?:
bluish grey

(010) Any piercings?:
nose, lip, gauges, tragus, industrial, rook, cartlidge...

(011) Any tattoos?:
two


DO YOU...
(012) Smoke:
yes.  cloves when i'm drunk and weed when i'm not.

(013) Drink:
yep.

(014) Do drugs:
only pot.

(015) Read the newspaper:
i usually just do the crossword.

(016) Talk to strangers who IM you:
depends.

(017) Like to walk in the leaves:
yes! fall needs to get here now.

(018) Take walks in the rain:
not really.

(019) Drive:
i just bought a new car!

(020) Like to drive fast?:
sometimes.

(021) Hurt yourself:
not on purpose.

(022) Have a job:
not right now but i really really need one.

(023) Like who you are:
sometimes.

(024) Consider love a mistake:
no.

(025) Base your judgement on looks alone:
i try not to but it's hard.

(026) Do you like/love someone?:
no.


HAVE YOU EVER...
(027) Been caught doing some thing your weren't supposed to be doing?:
i don't think so.

(028) Been in love:
never.

(029) Done drugs:
only pot.

(030) Gone skinny dipping:
no.

(031) Had a surgery:
no.

(032) Ran away from home:
no.

(033) Played strip poker:
no.

(034) Gotten beat up:
no.

(035) Been on stage:
yes.

(036) Slept outdoors:
in a tent.

(037) Pulled an all-nighter:
montauk.

(038) Talked on the phone all night:
no.

(039) Had an X-ray:
no.

(040) Had detention:
yes.

(041) Been suspended:
no.

(042) Been Expelled:
no.

(043) Slept all day:
not all day.

(044) Killed someone:
no.

(045) Made out with a stranger:
the only boys i've ever kissed have pretty much been strangers.

(046) Had sex with a stranger?:
no.

(047) Kissed the same sex:
no thanks.

(048) Done anything sexual with the same sex?
no.

(049) Been betrayed:
no.

(050) Broken the law:
yeah.

(051) Been arrested:
no.

(052) Been on radio/TV:
no.

(053) Been in a mosh-pit:
yes.

(054) Had a nervous breakdown:
a few minor ones.

(055) Been criticized about your sexual performance:
not that i know of.

(056) Had a dream that kept coming back:
i rarely remember my dreams.

(057) Seen your favorite band play:
a few of them.

(058) Owned a pair of big sunglasses:
yes.

(059) Worn a huge hat:
no.

(060) Judged other people by their clothing:
yes.

(061) Been told you have good taste:
yes.

(062) Been romantically attracted to someone and physically unattracted?:
yes.

(063) Been used?:
probably.

(064) Been in an abusive relationship?:
no.


DO YOU BELIEVE IN...
(065) Life on other planets:
not really.

(066) Miracles:
maybe.

(067) Astrology:
no.

(068) Magic:
no.

(069) God:
yes.

(070) The Devil:
i guess.

(071) True Love:
i would like to.

(072) Ghosts:
eh.

(073) Rebirth:
no.

(074) Love at first sight:
lust yes, love no.

(075) Ying and Yang?:
kind of.

(076) Witches:
no.

(077) The Easter Bunny:
no.

(078) Santa Clause:
no.


LAST PERSON...
(079) That you laughed at:
colleen.

(080) That laughed at you:
i think jessie or colleen.

(081) That hurt you:
i don't remember.

(081) That turned you on:
i'm not sure.

(082) That kissed you:
i don't want to talk about it.

(083) That hugged you:
trish.

(084) That you went shopping with :
trish and lizzie.

(085) To disappoint you:
boys.

(086) That made you cry:
myself.

(087) That brightened up your day:
trish and lizzie.

(088) You saw a movie with:
elizabeth, maddy and claire.

(089) You talked to on the phone:
jessie and colleen.

(090) You talked to on text message:
kristin.

(091) You to on IM:
colleen.

(092) That made you smile:
colleens livejournal.

(093) That made you laugh:
colleens livejournal.

(094) That saw you cry:
claire, maddy and elizabeth because of p.s. i love you.

(095) That bought you something:
my grandma.

(096) That danced with you:
i don't dance.

(097) That you have a crush on:
i have lots of little crushes.


The Whats...
(098) What do you find romantic?:
everything. i'm a hopeless romantic.

(099) What are your turn-on's?:
lip biting.

(100) What are your turn-off's?:
when boys are cocky.

(101) What is best about the opposite sex?:
tight pants.

(102) What is best about the same sex?:
?

(103) What is the last present someone got you?:
my grandma gave me money for my car.

(104) What makes you happy?:
my friends and music.

(105) What is your B-day?:
july 27, 1989

(106) What is your favorite movie?:
almost famous.

(107) What is your favorite band?:
that's really hard. relient k, margot & the nuclear so and so's, say anything, & rhcp.

(108) What is your favorite type of movie?:
weird indie ones that no one has ever seen.

(109) What is your favorite season?:
spring.

(110) What is your favorite month?:
hmm i like june.

(111) What is your favorite Holiday?:
halloween or christmas.

(112) What is your favorite language?:
french and hebrew are really pretty to listen to.

(113) What is your favorite thing to do?:
read.

(114) What is your favorite color(s)?:
purple.


The Who's...
(115) Your best friend(s):
alexa, jessie & colleen.

(116) The one person you can trust with any thing?:
alexa, jessie or colleen.

(117) Your favorite singer?:
laura marling.

(118) Your favorite Actor?:
mark ruffalo or trent ford.

(119) Your favorite Actress?:
zooey deschanel.

(120) Your favorite President?:
i know nothing about politics.

everything's gonna get lighter,
even if it never gets better.

so in a few hours i will be on my way to new paltz to start my second year of college.
i'm nineteen years old and a sophomore in college. how did this happen?! i still feel and usually act like i'm twelve. i feel like life is going too fast and next thing i know i'm going to graduating from college and having to find a real job with real responsibilities and i'll just be a grown up. i'm just dreading turning into an adult. but anyway here's a list of some goals that i would like to accomplish sometime this year...
-get a boyfriend.
-get a job.
-make an attempt at being social.
-do better in school.
-be productive.
-don't get fatter.
-stop reading about boys and actually talk to them.
-make friends.
-don't fall down/up stairs when i'm drunk. actually, try not to do this sober either.
-be less awkward.
okay, that's all for now. i'm sure this list will be edited a few times.

gahh, i hate fictional love.